Discovery One

by starkish

at almost 30, life unravels before your eyes either in bloom or in a wilt. theres the classic preconception of ‘everything will be figured out when you get older.’ nope.

life. thrown at you are challenges after challenges, one you take on with a brave heart or one that sends you to recoil in the corner and think over your tactical decisions. you do have a choice to either rise and rise like a phoenix or live in a constant loop of falling from grace. life truly is myriad kaleidoscope of everything and nothing short of being a beautiful disaster. if i had other talents other than writing my thoughts … i would paint, sing, dance as eloquently as i could write to explain life.

sadness and happiness. im slowly learning that choosing to be happy or sad is a personal choice. i started simple. with food. how do i even begin to explain the connection? it really is a chemical makeup. it not a full solution that fits everyones bill, but food plays a role in elevating your sanctity of happiness. eat right and be well. it is a luxury no doubt. do i have the luxury? yes. do i abuse it? sometimes. but it has come to a healthy ratio of 70:30. i have educated myself as much as i can and i don’t plan on stopping.

judgement. everyone is not immune to being judgmental. i wont state the obvious of what is sub-setted in this, there is no reason too. judgement borns of what the individual would think right or wrong and it is a constant battle in reference to human logic (laws, legislations, literature etc) and (to what some believe) holy scriptures. the act of balancing both has been around since the beginning of time. it is more rampant than not these days as personal lives are splayed out, easily accessible. it is an exercise of thought restraint that is possible for those who seek to be less.

love. love is thrown around too much or too little at the wrong time. love is not to be given out as easily, honestly. on both ends of the spectrum. it should be respected and earned, it should be pure and good and worked for. not demanded. never demanded. love that is demanded is corrupted. the kind, the gentle and the unconditional type of love is as rare as carlos magdelenas’ nymphaea thermarum. when you find it, cherish and hold it, be smart about it. love should be brave, love should be wild. love is how you make it to be. it should be worthwhile.

“When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.” ― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

forgiveness. this department is as complicated as a two state solution. a part of my heart is as dark as the other side of the moon. learning to forgive takes exercise and time. you should never not be open to be forgiving or forgiveness no matter how long or how hard. to say it and mean it, for it to show in your eyes, and breath. just keep on breathing.